Jobs Applied For: 3.
Interviews Scheduled: 0, but I had a phone interview on Friday.
GRE Studying: Just began developmental psychology, taking a break to catch up with General GRE.
Music Practice: A bit of keys.
There has been a lot of talk about the weather lately, New Yorkers are beginning to say that it's getting too cold. I personally don't see what the big deal is, to me this feels like Vermont so I really can't complain. Autumn is nipping at the heels of the Northeast which means change is going to happen. Although I will always be a summer child stubbornly set in that way, I welcome this change. After sitting in Stamford all season attempting to cure my case of unemployment, I NEED something exciting and fresh to happen. As you all read in my previous entry, this season is already impacting my life for the better. I just finished my first week with SPIN and I'm loving it there. So far, I've sat in on meeting, taken part in great research projects, and I am proud to say that I am working my first even next week! But while I firmly stated in my "mission statement" that this particular journal is dedicated to my next 5 year plan, I'd like to dive into my past for a bit.
I've been feeling a bit nostalgic lately. I guess that is a side effect of mending past broken hearts of the summer / watching my best friend temporarily move to a different country / renewing a connection with an old friend who I hadn't seen in 8 years prior to last month. You could say that I've had a few things on my mind, socially speaking. However, I haven't been wishing to go back or change the past. I've been thinking about my former blog lives and how I'm going to make this one more successful than the others. Many people don't know this but I have been blogging since before it was cool, since the ripe age of 14. At that age, English was essentially a second language to me the first being "American Teenager." I decided that keeping an online journal would help me rectify that problem and I signed up for a blank canvas account with Xanga. I wrote about my experiences in a new high school and blending in to the point of invisibility. While I learned how to fidget with the HTML settings and designed my page into teenage dream oblivion, the project was an epic failure complete with no grammar whatsoever and spelling errors galore. I looked back at it this weekend and I could barely understand what I was talking about.
Then came my LiveJournal phase. As my teenage dream turned into emotional angst, I attempted a second journal. One in which I could vent about anyone who was making me angry at the time. I updated the Xanga from time to time but this LiveJournal became my primary outlet of high school frustration. Keep in mind that these blogs began before the time of Facebook, it was when MySpace was only beginning to emerge as a social media outlet. I certainly said things on that blog that got me in big trouble with friends and boyfriends at the time, but I didn't care. I was 16 (or 17, or 18), self-conscious, and really really angry. No one wanted to listen to me so I took it out on the internet. I also deem that blog project as a complete failure. Not because of how disgusting personal and sad it became, but because of how superficial it turned out to be.
The third account, a blog spot account, was very short lived. I began this one during the second half of my college career and attempted to make it about how I was a hot shot NYU student trying to make it in the music scene (sound familiar?). I spent so much energy trying to actually make that career happen that I never really had the time to write in it. Updates became as sparse as once every 6 months, thus another failure.
And that brings me to the present, and my time spent with Trapped In Transition. The reason this has been working for me so far is because its about reality. It's not about teenage angst, boy problems, or big unachievable dreams. It's about a relatable position, a situation, and most importantly it's about ambition. So many people around the country are experiencing what I'm going through now and I am so pleased that I can provide you all with my silly stories and adventures about how I am making a shitty situation work. But this brings me to one question I've been trying to answer all summer. What sets me apart from everyone else?
Each of my former blogs had a personal signature at the end of every entry. I won't write what they are here because I don't want you to search for any of these former blogs. I wouldn't want to subject the awful writing, anger, or wishful thinking upon anyone. Following in tradition though, I would like to find a personal signature to add to every piece I write. Whether it's witty, silly, or serious, I'd like to put a personal stamp on it. I want to have fun with this little creative exercise, I would like to open up the floor to my readers for any suggestions on this matter. You can leave it to me on Facebook or in a comment below.
Do you have any ideas?
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